my misery, my happiness

i walked a lonely road with the earpiece plucked into my ears listening to baby baby ohh when it used to be us talking/laughing. this time round, i had to really wake up though i dont think im that ready for this major change and ive yet to say, im not totally recovered from this depressing issues. well as the saying goes, one by one ,people come and go. i am just afraid to lose someone whom have already play a big role in my life. meeting them so oftenly and now, not anymore.

do you know how hard i tried to adapt to the changes in poly not having charmaine beside me in class. not having the girls going down for breaks and at that moment, i felt so scared to go down because i felt so small as compared to the big people in rp. i am so lousy at this, adapting to a change out of a sudden is even harder.

nevermind. not the end of the world yet. i just need the time. from not use to not seeing charmaine everyday. now we've not met more than 2 freaking weeks.

so yesterday, finally met her for movie.. when in rome. it was freezing cold in the cinema, i was too lazy to carry a bag for my sweater. yet another, love story, interesting one i should say. so i shall go to the love fountain and hopefully ill pick a coin which belongs to a rich/handsome/loving dude and i shall keep it safe unless i get bored of him, ill return it back. so his love for me will be gone. HAHAHA. just kidding. oh yes i love the mini vespa car!

had dinner at macs. Well, nothing much different, she would complaint and ill listen. haha.we had the whole time talking about people, charmaine's camps- gt stuck with a protective gl for a partner(hehe!), her scary night walk stories. i swear, i wont be as daring to walk around the school ALONE for 45 minutes. plus sp is so goddam big! we need less than 10 minutes to walk from one end to another in rp. tsskk. actually to think of it, everywhere in singapore is scary la.

big hug and bid goodbyes. hope to we would not wait for another 2 weeks to meet up ok ! love you v much!

so i told mom about this clown car.. and she said rather than having this.. i think if u would save up and buy mini cooper would be a better idea instead. she's so against the idea of me riding a vespa. i hate public transportation. just imagine how cool my life would be if i have this clown car. damn awesome la.

nevermind, now dream big big.

baibai.