I have never felt this shitty, physically, emotionally & mentally. Yesterday I have that gut wrenching feeling in my tummy, I feel like puking everything out as soon as i reached home.
the last two days was an eye opener for myself. things happened unknowingly. i didnt felt the feeling of losing until the last two days which taught me how sucks it was and what dragon boat is all about.
i promised myself to stay healthy. i pledged to train fucking hard for this 4 weeks and endure through any shits just for regatta. ill get home with gold medals and ill do it! i will definitelymake sure that moments will come through because i believe, we can.
we can win the geek girls. we will be back stronger. it hurts pretty badly to see my team mates cry and if we were to cry again, that will be tears of joy and not dissapoinment
ill go through this shits. yes i will ,becaus ive never regretted the choices ive made.. the choice of joining rpdb and continue the game that ive started from the start.
though the first medal wasnt the one we're aiming for. it felt great at the end of the day. and i think i scare amelia with the not-rly-long-winded sms reply this morning when i typed out everythig in cap locks. lolz. the feeling of wanting something very badly, it really makes a differene in everything we do especially in the boat itself.
k ill stop for now. anyway life had been rather hectic. so that is the reason why im dissappearing from this cyber blog world. HAAH! oh yes, i got so high when i know the broom hair stick guy is finally OUT! heep heep horay!
okey i actually coped the pics somewhere.lolz. enjoy
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