GLAMOUROUS²²: this is how i roll

Everyday is a war for me
I don't know if it is for you. I'm going to admit it, God, I live in fear of death and loss. I breathe a sigh of relief when I fall back into bed every night smelling my smelly pillows, alive and well. I breathe another sigh of relief when I wake up and see my brother's went snoring and my mom busy in kitchen cooking for my breakfast.

Everyday, the fear of losing someone comes into my mind and it claws at my heart and I have to put up a fight to not let it hurt me too much. Seriously, anything can happen in this world. I can lose a leg tomorrow, any kind of acid may have spilt onto my face which causes it to disfigure, one of my friends would have leave me forever Or maybe I can even lose my entire family in a sudden bomb, I can lose them to war.

I really wonder what it is like to die.if tomorrow never come, MUST know i love all of you very much okay. Anyway this is so a random post. Ive decided to write something here since Charmaine says "face book only". face book= cooolexxx ya know? friendster it like a lame shit.hehe. but im still using it tho.

o levels are coming to an end. and its exactly 5 days to my "summer". 14 days to Charmaine's birthday and a month to mY 16TH Anniversary of living in this tiny world.
HSm3 is like the coolest movie ever(eventho i preferred the very first one) but still, being a hsm fan i would definitely loved every single part of it. catched it with bazilah and Charmaine a day before our physics paper. nothing to worry about since we've had sucha long break of 5 days to scram every formula's? f=ma r=v/I bleahhh into this bloody head.lol.

i began to be a bit thrifty this week, i spend my hari raya collection(seee! still untouched which really how's how long Ive not been shopping!) on dresses which i bought with bazilah and narisah at far east plaza after my MT papers.speaking of which mt was alhamdulillah ,manageable.i dared myself to do something different other than writting naratice stories which is harder to score(based on what cikgu says).hehe. lets hope the outcome would be satisfying yeah.And yesterday, followed my minah around.watched quantum of solace.it is such an aggressive show,omg and i bought pants.my minah rocks my socks.

my brother is a blessing and he's so blessed.he came in as a top student in his cohort for malay language and this Friday, im attending his prize giving day.YAYY. can see small kids performingggg. my fatty bom bom is taking higher mt next year and 4 standard subjects which is something that mamma's proud of.me too! my fatty bom bom wanna go RI haha. cita-cita die tinggi tau, even mimpi to be the top student in spore.dangssss. my fatty bom bom got scratched by that tiger amisiam.he even told baz alr. hahahhaa!

I don't know, I think it's a matter of misunderstanding, and a matter of give and take. We've got to understand that in ANY situation in life, nobody can please everybody. i love all my friends and i don't wish to lose anyone of them pretty please.

looking forward to the END OF THE BIG Os, SONORE(see my makcik bazilah performing!!) Charmaine's birthday!!(throw eggs dun care ah got melamine or not). oh yes, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROY YEO!!! and omfg, KAROKE WITH my lovelies. gonna sing till no voice like how me and Charmaine sang last year! kecohh babee.

kesiankan, budak zaman sekarang memang tahu tiru aje.gajah berak besar, kancil pun nak berak besar.ish3.siapakh orang-orang yangku maksudkan di sini? jeng3