Gone too soon granny

i love you so much nenek and i miss you. Five years ago when tok leaves me, i was asking this to myself, how will i be able to cope when both of you are gone forever. i can never imagine such day will come and i never did expect it to come too soon. i know you have been going through hell lots of shits thinking about this and that and i wasn't always there to hear you out. and i feel so bad right now because you were always there for me, doing all the little things which i could not list it down here because there's too many. you were like another mother to me. i will never forget all our memories together.. you taking care of me since i was a baby. you, waiting for me at PPIS right from the start of my lesson to the end, everyday. that day when i cried like baby when i was 16 because you and tok decided not to live with me. i spend all of my life with you. you were even there for me the day before you left me. we did the laundries together, you cooked dinner for me , you kissed me like you always do before i left home for camp.

i have always see you as a very strong woman.  when i bathed you, i hold your fragile legs and i realized, my grandma is old. i will miss holding your hands and kissing you on your cheeks. the day when u still smile for me when we took a pic together even when you're in pain, i felt so happy.

I love you so much. I will miss you until the day I die and I get to see you again in heaven. I can't wait to see you again. I hope I see you in my dreams, happy and free and content and healthy. I'm sorry I couldn't make it in time to say goodbye. But I have to tell you that i have always love you. I wish we had more time. I'm sorry for being a bad granddaughter when I was. You loved me nevertheless. I love you so much.Please protect me from whereever you are. please be happy for me. please pray for me like you have always do. please wait for me. i love you.

 

pictures speaks thousand of words.

my eventful days.

our new year celebration at ame's house

my first short getaway for 2013 to kuala lumpur with my r14 babies during our block leave

we were like in food paradise.

 

that very night, we decided to dress up for our dinner.

and dine at a mexican restuarant at pavillion.

a day in kl pass ust like that, we had to go home

 

 

 

in the plane back home.

and presenting to you, my tango. and it is named tango for some reasons. heh heh

bazilah's birthday at the flyer. i had to kill time before bringing her to the buffet that her parents had planned for her. anyway, it was her 21st and yes, we are legal this year!!

and another good friend turned 21. weiyi's birthday party!

my long lost netball buddy!

our "reunion" dinner at chomp2 before the cny!

and another good friend 21st birthday. happy birthday smiley!

1st entry for the year 2013

 2012 is over for a very long time. Its already the beginning of February. I am as busy as a bee and i barely have time to do some reflection on myself. This path i chose, is no doubt a very tiring and challenging one, but i am not regretting on this because somehow this is really for me.

I don't get to blog as often but as i looked through my blog entries, I'm sure that 2012 has been an eventful year for me. For the first part of the year I went through some issues with school and family. A very tough period for me.  It was the most challenging of all where I struggled in various aspects of my life.I experienced what could have been my worst battle. But I'm thankful that God saw me through this test and blessed me with supportive people around me. I couldn't ask for more.

Then comes the highlight for the next period somewhere around may, was the exciting break filled with various enriching activities. After graduation, Took the plane for the first time with my best friend and ended of my journey in rpdb with a bang.

My 20th year hasn't been smooth-sailing. It is one that I've learnt the most in terms of life's lessons  I've lost count of the number of times I questioned God and my faith, and times when I took things into my own hands. I admit that I've sinned a lot. Despite that, God didn't give up on me. In fact, He has patiently shown me how His plans are unfolding in my life. I'm really grateful for what i have been given now.

and i hope, i will have a blessed 2013.

eightwelve '12. i am twenty.

each year, as i turn older, i just want to thank allah for giving me a chance to live for another year. i may not be the best person who performs everything that he asked me to. sometimes i skipped my prayers when i know i shouldnt, i talked back to my parents when im angry and to add up to all the wrong doings that i have done, the list of things on my left shoulders must be piling up. despite being that kind of a person, he still let me live my life and blessed me with so many things which i couldnt imagine of having. i have the best family members, bestest friends who go beyond anything to make me happy on this day. he let me live to go on this path which i have always been dreaming of.

I am already twenty and already living my life towards my desired career. i pray and always hope that i will continue on living to be that kind of a person who always remember the good and the bad things. i will remain as that girl who will never do things which brings shame to my family and as the age increases, i hope allah will give me more strength to face the obstacles in the days to come. amin

Many thanks to my squad mates who gave me a pleasant birthday treatment to a puddle of water and have everyone including my fi to sing a birthday song for me. to those who send me well wishes through sms, twitter, call and fb message. to my two bestfriends who bring me to pizza hut for my advance birthday dinner, to my vanthewee for have everything planned for my birthday suprise and my db girls for carrying out the whole suprise and lastly, to my family who got me a birthday cake to complete my special day.

And thank you chelsea, for finally winning in the league game for me, on my birthday!